05-26-2019, 06:52 AM
(This post was last modified: 05-26-2019, 08:23 AM by EvolvingPhoenix.)
Been having really vivid dreams lately. Included in those dreams is dreaming about my ex-friend me trying to turn things around. This friendship breakup has been eating away at me since it happened in November of 2017. That's a long while to obsess over this. I've tried just moving on, I really have, but I can't yet. Something in me is preventing me from letting go, or moving on, or any of that. I feel so terrible about what happened. To have the love I feel trivialized, to be treated like just some crazy person best avoided, to be unable to work through these issues with the person I have them with... It feels utterly terrible! I don't think E2 is powerful enough. I can't yet afford E3. So I'm trapped in this vulnerable, deeply hurt state, and I can't express it to anybody because they don't understand, are sick of hearing about it and have their own problems, and my brothers divorce is on everybody's minds.
Can't wait to own E3. I'm really hoping it will heal all this.
If my dreams are anything to go by, I am in a very shitty place.
Can't wait to own E3. I'm really hoping it will heal all this.
If my dreams are anything to go by, I am in a very shitty place.
