05-25-2019, 07:43 AM
(This post was last modified: 05-25-2019, 07:55 AM by EvolvingPhoenix.)
Who do I need to prove I've changed to? My friend or myself? Have I changed? Have I changed enough? Is there a such thing as changing enough for me? Do I need to change at all to be worthy of the love I have denied myself for so long? Or am I worthy of it just as I am, flaws and all? If I'm enough, just as I am, why strive for improvement? Is it right to view it as improvement? Maybe the best "improvement" is to just follow my heart. Whatever the hell that means. What the hell DOES that mean and how do I do it? Do I need my friend to be in the wrong for friend dumping my ass or can I accept that she had every good reason to and forgive myself for that? Is there even a such thing as being right or wrong in that scenario? Do I need there to be and if so, why? Do I need to accept myself as I am or as I WAS? Maybe both? I am facing some very serious shit right now. And Im being expected to function normally today and I don't know how easy that will be or if I should even try.
