05-10-2019, 04:50 PM
I've given it a lot of thought. I'm going to focus on the "becoming" method and learn how to do it, so I can work through these issues with my ex-friend and have them care about how I felt throughout the whole thing. I don't expect it to happen any time soon. I'm going to practice the hell out of the method and all the while, I'll be trying to get my shit together: Getting a job, going to school, changing my daily habits to be more healthy, I'll hit the gym and pick up muscle, I'll teach english in Japan, I'll Learn to play guitar and sing, I'll improve my drawing, I'll get a GF and lots of good friends, I'll do lots of self healing and listen to lots of subs: E2, LTU5, AM6, WM, SM, DMSI, MLS (for guitar and Japanese) and APRL. I'll change my hair and I'll use minoxodyl to help me grow a full beard on my face. I'll change how I look, how I live, how I see myself, EVERYTHING, I will be reborn from the ashes of my former self. When I meet my ex-friend in person for the first time, I want to be a completely different man. I wanna LOOK different, carry myself different, act different, BE different. And I want them to see the person I've become and completely change how they view me. Then I'll use the becoming technique and anything else in my arsenal to get them to want to work through these issues with me so we can finally develop the friendship I've always wanted.
But I'm gonna have to practice the "becoming" method every day, and I'm gonna have to change my life and daily habits. I'm going to have to run all the subs that turn me into the person I want to be. And by the time I'm in my mid 30's I'll be ready to set things straight with my friend because I'll have set so much else in my life straight.
I'm not going to give into a victim mentality and feel like life is just me being disrespected and undervalued. I will become a man who values himself and gains the sincere respect, love and validation of everyone I care about. I. WILL. NOT. LOSE.
But I'm gonna have to practice the "becoming" method every day, and I'm gonna have to change my life and daily habits. I'm going to have to run all the subs that turn me into the person I want to be. And by the time I'm in my mid 30's I'll be ready to set things straight with my friend because I'll have set so much else in my life straight.
I'm not going to give into a victim mentality and feel like life is just me being disrespected and undervalued. I will become a man who values himself and gains the sincere respect, love and validation of everyone I care about. I. WILL. NOT. LOSE.
