05-10-2019, 12:59 AM
Something else has come about which I purposely have not shared. I've distanced myself from my mom and my blood family all this week.
I shared how last weekend I was at my mom's, since she had been at the hospital again. Something gave way inside me, and I completely ignored all contact with her after I left. I felt used, as nothing's changed. She's called every day. I have not listened to any voicemails since they are always helpless pleas and manipulations. Both brothers have called and texted, but I've ignored them too. They're still playing their sick "roles" as well.
Something in me finally (and firmly) just said "no". I refuse. I don't want to play anymore.
I'll make some short Mother's Day contact, a text, but nothing more. It hurts living in this family and being used while all actions lead to her own self destruction.
I don't want to do this anymore.
I shared how last weekend I was at my mom's, since she had been at the hospital again. Something gave way inside me, and I completely ignored all contact with her after I left. I felt used, as nothing's changed. She's called every day. I have not listened to any voicemails since they are always helpless pleas and manipulations. Both brothers have called and texted, but I've ignored them too. They're still playing their sick "roles" as well.
Something in me finally (and firmly) just said "no". I refuse. I don't want to play anymore.
I'll make some short Mother's Day contact, a text, but nothing more. It hurts living in this family and being used while all actions lead to her own self destruction.
I don't want to do this anymore.
I want to be FREE!
