05-08-2019, 07:55 AM
Just over the half way point now and im feeling generally ok. Still very tired more tired than usual. I joined the work cricket team, have not been social for years. I feel more comfortable in new environments, but still getting use to it. And people's insults and digs do not phase me anymore. The girl I really have something for has blocked me again on whatsapp after i updated my status. I didnt hardly feel anything, not like the 1st time she did. I am feeling better about her and I should not let something like that have an affect on me. My frame of mind is very low status. But hopefully with DMSI and other subs and self improvement I will increase my frame of mind to a higher state.
I also noticed after reading another journal that I am also keeping the house cleaner. Instead of waiting days to do something I do it almost immediately.
At work my balls are growing bigger as well as i question people without the fear of what they think but still working on it.
Girl at the tattoo place did turn around on her chair and flashed her panties at mw. I did notice this on AOS. Girls on the train just staring at me and I would almost all the time have girls sitting next to me or opposite me on the train.
After DMSI the plan was to run AM but debating between AM LTU and DMSI. Lets see how the next 45 days go.
Thinking of changing up to 10 days straight and 3 days off, really break my subconscious. I want to do things with girls, but I almost always bail out. I want to have so much fun, but never do. Just still scared and fearful.
I also noticed after reading another journal that I am also keeping the house cleaner. Instead of waiting days to do something I do it almost immediately.
At work my balls are growing bigger as well as i question people without the fear of what they think but still working on it.
Girl at the tattoo place did turn around on her chair and flashed her panties at mw. I did notice this on AOS. Girls on the train just staring at me and I would almost all the time have girls sitting next to me or opposite me on the train.
After DMSI the plan was to run AM but debating between AM LTU and DMSI. Lets see how the next 45 days go.
Thinking of changing up to 10 days straight and 3 days off, really break my subconscious. I want to do things with girls, but I almost always bail out. I want to have so much fun, but never do. Just still scared and fearful.
