05-03-2019, 07:20 AM
Day 34:
So I went to bed early last night and now I've awoken at 11 AM today. MUCH earlier than when I usually wake up.
I'm discovering I have some deep seated hurt over things my exfriend has said to me in the past. I have a desire to make this friend regret the hurtful things they've said to me. Even though I've said hurtful things to them and regret what I've said. I'm in a weird place that's hard to heal right now.
Seems I haven't fully forgiven my friend for the hurtful things they've said nor myself for what I did to make my friend say them.
One of these days, my exfriend and I WILL work through these issues. If I have to learn everything there is to learn about the "becoming" technique, I will.
So I went to bed early last night and now I've awoken at 11 AM today. MUCH earlier than when I usually wake up.
I'm discovering I have some deep seated hurt over things my exfriend has said to me in the past. I have a desire to make this friend regret the hurtful things they've said to me. Even though I've said hurtful things to them and regret what I've said. I'm in a weird place that's hard to heal right now.
Seems I haven't fully forgiven my friend for the hurtful things they've said nor myself for what I did to make my friend say them.
One of these days, my exfriend and I WILL work through these issues. If I have to learn everything there is to learn about the "becoming" technique, I will.
