Some Kind of Journal - Random Thoughts

[THolt]

If all you have ever known was fear, them removing the fear requires you to re-evaluate and recreate all of your beliefs from the ground up.  It's not suicide at all, it's an irrational and afraid part of yourself not comprehending that it can become something completely different and still exist and be even safer, healthier and happier than before.

Fear is a response that tends to self generate and re-generate because fear results in thinking and beliefs that lead to more fear.  So your response makes perfect sense if all you've ever known is fear.  You have come to believe that you ARE that fear, when in fact the fear is no more "you" than everything else that you experience, without actually being.  It is this misunderstanding that generates the fear of death, because in that case change away from fear seems to threaten you with "no identity", which is unknown and incomprehensible and therefore equated with the only other thing that is unknown and incomprehensible - death.  The truth is, you have an identity based on what you believe, and your identity automatically and naturally adjusts when you change what you believe.  There is no "death" or "threat".  It's impossible for you to "lose your identity" by changing your beliefs, and there is no way that "changing your beliefs" can result in any part of you dying unless your beliefs directly dictate self destruction.  Nothing in any of my subliminals is even negative, never mind dictating destruction, and especially not self destruction!

In fact you are changing your beliefs all the time, at the conscious level, which is how and why conscious understanding and desires can and do eventually change to differ from subconscious understanding and desires.  If you did not have this very difference between conscious and subconscious understanding and desires, you would not be attempting at a conscious level to make any changes, in fact, which only goes to prove what I am saying is true.

So you are reacting very negatively to USLM4 because it works, and the configuration you are using is basically going straight to the most core and fearful part of you immediately (masked format), which triggers the most fear and is at the same time the least powerful way to introduce the instruction set, meaning the fear has overridden the script's ability to deal with it because the usage format is not strong enough.  That is precisely why we have masked, ultrasonic and hybrid formats.

Furthermore, USLM4 is a HUGE jump in power and ability from USLM3, and that is why it has such an odd ASRB2.  You can't assume that just because masked format was best in the past, that it will still be the best choice for you!  You have to try things until you find what works best for you.  So go try ultrasonic format at a moderate volume and see how that works for you.

Also, I strongly recommend that you try to play the loops starting at least an hour after you fall asleep.

I can try it with the US track, but wouldn't be the better approach be E3 in this case? The subs should be very similar in terms of power, aren't they? With exception of the tuning of ME I mean.

LTU5 and E3 are miles apart in terms of how the ME is tuned.  Just having the completed ME doesn't mean everything is equally powerful.  E3 needs to be tuned a LOT less powerfully than LTU5 to accomplish its goals.  And LTU5 is tuned a LOT less powerfully than USLM4.  All three have the completed ME, but they all use different power levels because that is what best accomplishes their particular focus and goals.  It's SOPS, remember.  Not "one size fits all".  The Magnus Engine can be tuned to any level of power, from way too weak to work, to far too strong to be useful, and that is true because every goal has a different optimal power level.  This allows me to fine-tune it to whatever is best for that specific script and set of instructions.

E3 is certainly a valid option.  It is a good option, too, but I don't like recommending programs to help deal with the resistance of other programs for two reasons:

1. It makes me look like I'm trying to up-sell, when I'm not, and
2. The original program can do the job, if configured properly and given the chance.

I recommend trying the ultrasonic and possibly hybrid formats before you go spending money on E3, unless you already happen to have it.

E3 is a very good program. I have run it for one month. I feel like running E3 for a couple months will sufficiently prepare for running USLM4. Who knows, I may run E3 longer but I like the way I feel on it aside from some hunger pangs and what not.