04-29-2019, 09:18 AM
(This post was last modified: 04-29-2019, 09:19 AM by EvolvingPhoenix.)
Day 31:
I'm noticing fear arising within me. Fear to do anything productive, like all I wanna do is sleep or d*ck around on the computer. I don't know why I'm afraid to do anything productive, but I am. Yet, I choose to try and do something productive anyway, so I'm deciding to take the plunge and finally start up the "becoming" technique, and... I can't imagine it. Getting back with my friend. I can't imagine us reconciling. I find the "becoming" technique itself quite difficult. And here I wanted to create this very specific type of GF for myself. The problem is it was an online friendship, and to imagine us getting back together is to imagine suddenly getting messaged back by this friend. I have a hard time imagining the messaging back and forth on the internet. I'm just now starting this technique and I'm already having trouble. I've gotta figure out what to imagine! I've got to figure out the scene to set. And I've got to focus myself on imagining it.
I'm noticing fear arising within me. Fear to do anything productive, like all I wanna do is sleep or d*ck around on the computer. I don't know why I'm afraid to do anything productive, but I am. Yet, I choose to try and do something productive anyway, so I'm deciding to take the plunge and finally start up the "becoming" technique, and... I can't imagine it. Getting back with my friend. I can't imagine us reconciling. I find the "becoming" technique itself quite difficult. And here I wanted to create this very specific type of GF for myself. The problem is it was an online friendship, and to imagine us getting back together is to imagine suddenly getting messaged back by this friend. I have a hard time imagining the messaging back and forth on the internet. I'm just now starting this technique and I'm already having trouble. I've gotta figure out what to imagine! I've got to figure out the scene to set. And I've got to focus myself on imagining it.
