04-19-2019, 11:11 AM
Day 21: so yesterday (day 20) I spent my day hanging out with friends which felt good, although I got really stoned with them and made myself look stupid at times.
Now it's day 21.
So, a couple developments:
One is that I'm talking to my vocational rehabilitation counselor about getting work as a teachers assistant.
I'm worried how I'll do though. And I dunno if I'll make any friends as a TA. There's a lot I worry about, but it should be good for me.
Another is that my brother's wife wants a divorce, and it's kinda fucking with me, because it's making me worry that even if I attract my perfect romantic lover with one of these subs, she'll just leave when problems arise. Part of it is because of the friendship breakup. My friend didn't want to work through our differences, even after I apologized profusely and begged for forgiveness. My brother wants to work through their differences but his wife still wants a divorce. I just worry that even if I attract my perfect romantic lover, she'll just leave when problems arive. Like when the going gets rough, she'll get going. And I'll experience this pain all over again.
It's like my exfriend said in her artwork on her way out if the friendship: "It's easy to love somebody until the hars times roll around"
Now it's day 21.
So, a couple developments:
One is that I'm talking to my vocational rehabilitation counselor about getting work as a teachers assistant.
I'm worried how I'll do though. And I dunno if I'll make any friends as a TA. There's a lot I worry about, but it should be good for me.
Another is that my brother's wife wants a divorce, and it's kinda fucking with me, because it's making me worry that even if I attract my perfect romantic lover with one of these subs, she'll just leave when problems arise. Part of it is because of the friendship breakup. My friend didn't want to work through our differences, even after I apologized profusely and begged for forgiveness. My brother wants to work through their differences but his wife still wants a divorce. I just worry that even if I attract my perfect romantic lover, she'll just leave when problems arive. Like when the going gets rough, she'll get going. And I'll experience this pain all over again.
It's like my exfriend said in her artwork on her way out if the friendship: "It's easy to love somebody until the hars times roll around"
