StridingStrider's LTU5 Journal

[StridingStrider]

Day 23

Got it again today. This time from my co-worker I think. Getting tired of smelling other peoples innards. Think I might start wearing some pheromones so at least I have something nice to smell.

Anxiety and fear definitely lessened. Had one of my triggers today and I felt it try to fire (panic attack) but it came up empty. I'm still in the cycle of expecting something to happen, even though nothing does, which is a positive. Hopefully I can just remove the behavior entirely.

The stress relief is also a god send. Normally it manifests in foot movement, as over the years I've tried to suppress it from my upper body so other people didn't catch on. Reduction here too.

FRM is definitely a major advance in technology. State shifting was nice when it actually fired, but not feeling the fear in the first place is better all round.

As for motivation, not much in the realm of finding a new job or learning to drive, but I'm reading more. I think this might just be down to losing interest in other things though, like playing PC games and watching YouTube.