04-09-2019, 08:17 PM
I'm now focusing intently on my music. I noticed there were multiple moments in the past few days where I would feel a weird sense of uncertainty or dread. I realized it was my fear that is caused by me being on the path that will lead me to success, which is to FOCUS and DEDICATE myself to my music. In the past, I would always (literally) self-sabotage by starting to play games or watch some porn or spend all day browsing the internet (which can have almost as bad effects as gaming or porn addiction, simply because of the dopamine desensitization aspect that is caused by it, and all addictions). Now, I haven't self-sabotaged as of yet. I'm focusing even more. Worked on music all day in the past 3 days. All I need to do is keep this up. Make this my obsession. Become "addicted" to my life's path and purpose (one of them).
