Shannon's LTU5 Thread

[Shannon]

Yesterday I was doing some deep emotional work apparently. E3 in this program is no joke. Just want to remind people that it's not always going to be fun or easy, but it is worth while.

You don't have to go into the specifics if you don't want to. But I'm interested in hearing what's going on. I feel like I've been on a bit of a rollercoaster lately, trying to plant my feet somewhere but I just keep going with the healing. It's like part of me wants to say enough, this is too intense. But another part is telling me keep going, this is the path to happiness.

Some days, the parts of me that are healing are dealing with things that cause some turmoil that I can still notice at a conscious level.  Yesterday, I could feel part of myself crying for most of the day.  GF has felt that for three or four days in a row.  

I spent most of yesterday being short tempered and irritable because of it, and it has required patience dealing with GF for the same reason during this time.  But I know I am making solid progress, because I can definitely feel it.
I have tried to make the process as easy and comfortable as possible, but apparently either it's just not possible to make it completely easy and comfortable, or I still don't understand how to yet.  I'm sure it will turn out to be the latter.

But if I am dealing with it, through everything I put into the script to make this easy and comfortable, then I know at least some of you are too.  So just please keep in mind that this is a process that leads to a better future for you, and don't give up on it for anything.