(04-03-2019, 08:25 AM)whome Wrote:(04-03-2019, 05:22 AM)Greenduck Wrote: I also use to get popping in different objects in my room sometimes while listening. I guess it's energy from you being released or something like that.
This is a popping in the wall from the radiator (I live in an apartment). It's been happening for years, and keeps me awake.
(04-03-2019, 05:22 AM)Greenduck Wrote: Have you though about trying MDMA as a healing aid?
I have done tons of drugs for healing. MDMA, mushrooms, ayahuasca, ketamine. All bring up existential terror. Meditation tends to do that too; basically anything that gets me into my body is unpleasant.
Right now I'm doing my best to grind through it.
Alright. Look into trauma releasing exercises . It let you connect with your body in a safe way. There may be a center which teaches it in your area if you Google or you can look it up on YouTube .
I know how it feels. During my worst times I was extremely ungrounded and totally lost touch with my body and I know what kind of disturbance that can cause to your well-being. My recommendation is perseverance and meditation every day, preferably root Chakra meditation as I linked to as its your connection point with the body. TRE exercises alsp help with that. You will learn to breathe more into your body and from there heal yourself.
