Ok, have some time to add some things now to my last post so here we go. Like I wrote before the sub gave me more and more exhaustment under the surface. After fading it feels like I was trapped in a certain state and every other state was just emulated within this state if it makes sense. At least this is how it feels like. I wrote in my first post that I think it might be caused by the advanced state shifting and I know what Shannon answered I just see some different possibilities why this was happening. Which can be:
- The state shifting was somehow used by the SC to exhaust me for resistance reason
- The state shifting was used by SC to keep me there because it thought it was the best way to execute. Let me explain. A part of resistance seem to be conscius resistance and when I am really exhausted or really sick there is no more conscious resistance because I simply don't care anymore. So it happened that even in my most beta times I got an unexpected invitation from a woman to stay overnight at her place because I acted more like an alpha, maybe even more like an asshole at this time because I simply didn't care
- The state is induced as result of FRM trying to remove fears and it's not possible to escape this state while it is working
In theory, theory and practice are the same. In practice, they are not.
