02-07-2019, 10:30 AM
Last night I ran a playlist of an hour of silence then five loops of DMSI. The plan was to do three more later today.
What happened was that I woke emotionally crushed (both numb and in pain), and for much of the morning kept catching myself imagining jumping into a wood chipper, both to feel the excruciating pain and to have it stop. It was a cuddle morning, though, and with the soothing of the cuddler it took about an hour to get the grief to turn off.
I think I jumped back in too quickly. I'm going to take a real break until I'm feeling better, as I'm not sure if this emotional crushedness was DMSI or the remnants of my illness or both.
And then I have to wonder if it'll be better to ramp it up from nothing.
What happened was that I woke emotionally crushed (both numb and in pain), and for much of the morning kept catching myself imagining jumping into a wood chipper, both to feel the excruciating pain and to have it stop. It was a cuddle morning, though, and with the soothing of the cuddler it took about an hour to get the grief to turn off.
I think I jumped back in too quickly. I'm going to take a real break until I'm feeling better, as I'm not sure if this emotional crushedness was DMSI or the remnants of my illness or both.
And then I have to wonder if it'll be better to ramp it up from nothing.
I share the details of my life in my posts to help in the understanding of the effects of the subliminals I use. I am only open to advice that relates to the use of the subliminals.
