01-25-2019, 05:32 PM
(01-25-2019, 11:57 AM)cataleya Wrote: The last 3 weeks have been...disappointing.
Businesswise I feel like I am going nowhere. Doing a little bit of this, a little bit of that. No real direction. Constantly researching stuff, rarely implementing any of it. I feel paralyzed whenever I have to take some sort of significant action towards my business. I realize it`s all in my head but it`s hard to break that barrier. There were some days when night would come and I would be happy to go to sleep. That is not a good sign. The ironic thing is the sleeping doesn`t help because 80% of time I have bad dreams. Last night I dreamt a crowd was staring at me. They had like crazy/zombie eyes. I woke feeling really uncomfortable.
The first 2 months I felt good on this sub. At least most of the time. I was executing the sub. Now it just feels like nothing is happening. Like I have stopped executing. I didn`t even want to write this down in the journal here because I feel so ashamed. But I changed my mind. A lot of others had the courage to write about really personal things so I should too.
The US/LM4 sounds great but unfortunately I really don`t have the money for it right now.
You are not alone. Overall I have executed USLMx very well but during the last two weeks of December I didn’t execute at all and had extreme anxiety. This is coming from a naturally low anxiety person. I had such high anxiety at work I almost called off sick. I have had 3 days of unplanned absences in 10.5 years so this would be extremely odd for me. What made things worse I became distant with my GF due to the anxiety and when I tried to explain things she didn’t believe me since I have always been a low anxiety person. I felt completely alone and slept 10-12 hours per day. I also felt paralyzed when faced with decisions especially at work. I just kept going with USLM3 and eventually I pulled through. I assume the FRM was working through something major. I’m now back to executing. Not sure if this helps but best of luck getting through whatever the sub is causing you to work through.
Grit
