01-15-2019, 05:28 AM
(This post was last modified: 01-15-2019, 10:37 PM by Shadow2200.)
Day 40
Things have been progressing at s good rate. A lot of my success so far had come from the anti fear mod. In that through I've been able to expand my comfort zone quite a bit with a lot less fear than ever before. For example I,very been doing day game if you want to call it that mainly just being social to e everybody. Taking time each day doing 30 minutes or so just out talking to people etc so when I need to I can open a girl I like. Just like working out at the gym. Although in day game I,m still a newbie mainly working on getting ok overcoming fear. Combined with sniper aura effects girls are a lot more open to meeting me giving out their number. So for the first time getting past fear to take action to change things. Good stuff.
On the success side of things I was chatting with a new girl while waiting for work at temp work place. After a chat for a bit I got her number. Latter that day when I gave her a call I came over to her house to hang out. We watched a movie then ended up having sex. then went to go get Chinese food. So made another sex friend. That other one I made last week went off back with her bf after we had sex, but still friends. And at work got the number some girl she offered me a ride after work I seriously thought about going home with her and hanging out of course probley having sex.things are looking up. On top of that been getting calls from old fings checking in me from Facebook etc. One thing I will say It's great making new friends. I'm going to have to work on getting higher quality girls these 2 are ok being on the rebound or from out of town so it worked out> i'm going to Try for higher quality girls. This is a good start though.
A while back shannon encouraged that got too complacent in my arrangement with dancer that over time got tamed to the point I was doing everything for her and getting little un return for it. Allt if it was just the fear of not having a girl. It had me in s bad space and she knew. Now however she had gotten the clue that yes I,m going to talking to lots of other people I could careless if she don,t respond, and she should invite out to meet her friends etc if she wants to be helpful. She did help me out trying to get a job at her place although not really like the hours she could take me very convenient. That being said as things move forward it,s going to be more and more clear that nothing or no person us going to hold me back from being the person i was always supposed to be. Something tells me all the stories and attention from other girls is ether going to make so I have no time for dancer or just have way to options to have much to do with. Being a few months ago would if been unthinkable
Another thing going on I have this boss that's really trying to control what other meeting places we can go on our off time. It,s pretty lame and petty in the since has nothing about anything, but trying to control people in their free time, because he has issues with every other boss in town. For my skills to grow with my music and for my social game I need to be out practicing with lots if girls and musically need to get around playing with lots of people for my skills to grow. Before all this, dancer had encouraged me to branch out on 3,2 I was too scared off my boss I never would risk it or as shannon would say too betazied to risk losing her by talking to other girls. Now with 3.3 she knows i talk to other girls. although i'm sensing she really don't want me to branching out to other girls even though she says she's ok with it. Plus i'm getting strong enough I can accept taking risks and moving on. Been feeling like boss and dancer holding me back. No thing or no person is going to stop me for being what i'm supposed to be.
it's taking it's time but the anti-fear mod has helped. Slowly but it is very strong much stronger than healing or clearing. Everything from my eye contact , bodly language all much better The main thing 4.1 anti fear mod did is help with me being ok with taking risks more which is coming from fear getting weaker. still there but much less a issue So i more likely like to take action. in both of the cases where i got a sex friend or lay i had to take risks even though they was into me i was still uncomfortable taking the lead and making it happen even with the quote easy girls, still had to challenge fear and take action. I'm glad i did but it was scary as i've never really did anything like that before. I was always in my comfort zone so much they never had a chance to be with me without being super forward or aggressive which still happens, now i'm just getting more comfortable with at least taking half way and risking making it happen i;e getting a number asking to hang our and going for sex. A lot less of waiting for her do everything, which is mainly girls in my circle already that know me. Which is cool at this time in my life i needed to take a lot of action as i was stuck with few options. Dancer knew that and kinda of took advantage of that fact. Which nothing wrong with her in a sense cause i let myself get tamed like that. I knew something had to change, and action had to be took to change it
I'm anti-fear mod 4.5-4.5 i'm taking things to the next level.
Things have been progressing at s good rate. A lot of my success so far had come from the anti fear mod. In that through I've been able to expand my comfort zone quite a bit with a lot less fear than ever before. For example I,very been doing day game if you want to call it that mainly just being social to e everybody. Taking time each day doing 30 minutes or so just out talking to people etc so when I need to I can open a girl I like. Just like working out at the gym. Although in day game I,m still a newbie mainly working on getting ok overcoming fear. Combined with sniper aura effects girls are a lot more open to meeting me giving out their number. So for the first time getting past fear to take action to change things. Good stuff.
On the success side of things I was chatting with a new girl while waiting for work at temp work place. After a chat for a bit I got her number. Latter that day when I gave her a call I came over to her house to hang out. We watched a movie then ended up having sex. then went to go get Chinese food. So made another sex friend. That other one I made last week went off back with her bf after we had sex, but still friends. And at work got the number some girl she offered me a ride after work I seriously thought about going home with her and hanging out of course probley having sex.things are looking up. On top of that been getting calls from old fings checking in me from Facebook etc. One thing I will say It's great making new friends. I'm going to have to work on getting higher quality girls these 2 are ok being on the rebound or from out of town so it worked out> i'm going to Try for higher quality girls. This is a good start though.
A while back shannon encouraged that got too complacent in my arrangement with dancer that over time got tamed to the point I was doing everything for her and getting little un return for it. Allt if it was just the fear of not having a girl. It had me in s bad space and she knew. Now however she had gotten the clue that yes I,m going to talking to lots of other people I could careless if she don,t respond, and she should invite out to meet her friends etc if she wants to be helpful. She did help me out trying to get a job at her place although not really like the hours she could take me very convenient. That being said as things move forward it,s going to be more and more clear that nothing or no person us going to hold me back from being the person i was always supposed to be. Something tells me all the stories and attention from other girls is ether going to make so I have no time for dancer or just have way to options to have much to do with. Being a few months ago would if been unthinkable
Another thing going on I have this boss that's really trying to control what other meeting places we can go on our off time. It,s pretty lame and petty in the since has nothing about anything, but trying to control people in their free time, because he has issues with every other boss in town. For my skills to grow with my music and for my social game I need to be out practicing with lots if girls and musically need to get around playing with lots of people for my skills to grow. Before all this, dancer had encouraged me to branch out on 3,2 I was too scared off my boss I never would risk it or as shannon would say too betazied to risk losing her by talking to other girls. Now with 3.3 she knows i talk to other girls. although i'm sensing she really don't want me to branching out to other girls even though she says she's ok with it. Plus i'm getting strong enough I can accept taking risks and moving on. Been feeling like boss and dancer holding me back. No thing or no person is going to stop me for being what i'm supposed to be.
it's taking it's time but the anti-fear mod has helped. Slowly but it is very strong much stronger than healing or clearing. Everything from my eye contact , bodly language all much better The main thing 4.1 anti fear mod did is help with me being ok with taking risks more which is coming from fear getting weaker. still there but much less a issue So i more likely like to take action. in both of the cases where i got a sex friend or lay i had to take risks even though they was into me i was still uncomfortable taking the lead and making it happen even with the quote easy girls, still had to challenge fear and take action. I'm glad i did but it was scary as i've never really did anything like that before. I was always in my comfort zone so much they never had a chance to be with me without being super forward or aggressive which still happens, now i'm just getting more comfortable with at least taking half way and risking making it happen i;e getting a number asking to hang our and going for sex. A lot less of waiting for her do everything, which is mainly girls in my circle already that know me. Which is cool at this time in my life i needed to take a lot of action as i was stuck with few options. Dancer knew that and kinda of took advantage of that fact. Which nothing wrong with her in a sense cause i let myself get tamed like that. I knew something had to change, and action had to be took to change it
I'm anti-fear mod 4.5-4.5 i'm taking things to the next level.
