01-03-2019, 04:30 AM
SE was just the booster shot I needed. Almost as soon as I started playing it I devoured a bunch of books on SE and re-established some orienting principles. I woke up day before yesterday with a strong message of 'now refresh MLS'; and fark this thing is a master piece, my brain whilst on it and off it is like night and day - I came into work yesterday and fixed a problem someone in my team had been struggling with for a while (this is after going blank in meetings with them for the last month) and they were shocked - my focus has returned as well as my enjoyment of life.
I feel zero fear related to work - again I don't know if this is FRM blooming like crazy or just the vacume left by FRM being filled by MLS/SE or what. I have a report to present to my CEO in two months - it's crazy behind and really could be a killer for me, but all I care about is what I'm learning and contributing and the enjoyment of another challenge to over come - looking forward to how I will grow.
My weight is coming down again after having gone up by around 10lbs through just numb carb devouring and looking in the mirror I don't look tired and lost anymore.
Oh yeah and I just bought a house, which is in a perfect location for me.
I feel zero fear related to work - again I don't know if this is FRM blooming like crazy or just the vacume left by FRM being filled by MLS/SE or what. I have a report to present to my CEO in two months - it's crazy behind and really could be a killer for me, but all I care about is what I'm learning and contributing and the enjoyment of another challenge to over come - looking forward to how I will grow.
My weight is coming down again after having gone up by around 10lbs through just numb carb devouring and looking in the mirror I don't look tired and lost anymore.
Oh yeah and I just bought a house, which is in a perfect location for me.
Your task is not to seek for Love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.
