01-01-2019, 01:09 PM
Ok, been a while and I think I have big insight into what is going on. Before I mention that though I think I should mention I still see some results when I go to one gas station near me for snacks. Both these older women keep making conversation with me when I go there. One in particular who is "slightly" attractive imo probably talks the most to me. I did find out though that even though she was born here her parents are from one of the central American countries (Guatemala I believe) and she goes back to the country often. She is also thinking about going back there permanently within a few years.
On a related point I have this very reliable hunch that my subconscious is trying to sabotage my studies by making me extremely lazy at the moment. I have this intuition or rather this almost feeling of certainty that its doing this because it knows that if I get to South Korea I will execute. I put this down to 2 things why I would execute: (1) I do find most South korean women to look either cute or very attractive and (2) I think as Shannon theorized with my results when I got to the Philippines that the part of me that is executing is trying to get me to another country and culture where I won't risk those adverse negative reactions that I would have when dealing with American women.
So it would seem that my major priority right now would be to keep pushing through my studies so I can move out of here because as it seems right now the only women who seem to be affected at the moment are older women who are foreign born or whose parents are foreign born. That seems to be the link between a lot of them. I don't know but I guess at least for staying in America my subconscious might just have too much trauma from dealing with women here to want to even try attracting a women here overall.
On a related point I have this very reliable hunch that my subconscious is trying to sabotage my studies by making me extremely lazy at the moment. I have this intuition or rather this almost feeling of certainty that its doing this because it knows that if I get to South Korea I will execute. I put this down to 2 things why I would execute: (1) I do find most South korean women to look either cute or very attractive and (2) I think as Shannon theorized with my results when I got to the Philippines that the part of me that is executing is trying to get me to another country and culture where I won't risk those adverse negative reactions that I would have when dealing with American women.
So it would seem that my major priority right now would be to keep pushing through my studies so I can move out of here because as it seems right now the only women who seem to be affected at the moment are older women who are foreign born or whose parents are foreign born. That seems to be the link between a lot of them. I don't know but I guess at least for staying in America my subconscious might just have too much trauma from dealing with women here to want to even try attracting a women here overall.
"I have no use of disciples. Let everyone be their own true follower" - Nietzsche
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