12-05-2018, 09:36 PM
(This post was last modified: 12-05-2018, 09:51 PM by Shadow2200.)
Dancer been quiet today, no texting or calls she must be up to something. One of the things concerning me and her is the fact both of us are kind of seeing other people as well. She has a semi boy friend and I have some other people I talk to as well. As the summer had progressed she had been spending a lot more time with me than her other man on the side. She dose care for him but for some reason she wants me to stay around despite the fact I've told her she need to drop me if she was to be serious to be with that other guy.
One of the things I've been hoping for and it had been going that way is for her to finally ditch that bump because even being by herself is better than being with him. Pretty much that's kind of how I got in the picture cause he's really not trying to help her and is the reason she in a mess in the first place. While I think he's a nice person he just not really trying to be with her. However she is determined to try and save him, but it's a total waste of time. She thinks if she runs out of him when he's sick she'll be a bad person. One of her friends did that to her man and she wants to do better than her. She knows how I feel about the situation and kind of keeps all that to her self, which is good. Cause i feel he's doing nothing but holding her back.
As a typical woman she would like us all to be friends some how i.e. get along and all big nice happy group. A few months ago we tried that didn't work out as well mainly cause everybody knew the situation of her trying to be around 2 guys openly and didn't workout so great. So she ending up putting one distance between us. Which has continued to this day. Yesterday however she kind of slipped up and said she's being helping him out some by taking him to the doctor and such. He's got a lot of health problems as well as addictions to stuff which makes it even worse. In it self that was minor but you have to keep in mind she rarely see's him maybe a once a week or less which I see her everyday. Still she hangs on to him and he's in the background somewhere. it's funny cause he knows i see her all the time He Also knows she cares for him since and they been together a long time so she always comes running back to him even though he's not serious of trying to be with her or trying to help his own self. So in a nutshell she probably with him trying to nurse him back to health or something. Which is all good I know I'll see her ether tomorrow or Friday so no big loss.
On the other side of things I have this singer girl I'm friends with and used to have more intimate relationship with her till one of my single mom friends got jealous and messed that up with causing a giant big fight. They had both been friends and singer didn't know i had been messing around with the single mom for so time. Of course the single mom got tired of all this and spilled the beans with the singer girl. So now me and singer are just friends i.e. just talking on the phone or sometimes going out to eat but no more sex. She dose care a lot for me, way more than I do for her. The issue is with her she cares for me too much. Often times she dose very foolish things in a effort to try to make me happy. In which also causes problems. The other mainly problem with her just a very negative person and complete opposite of me who is mainly positive. A nice person in a since but not someone I'm really physically attracted to. She comes from a time long ago before I did sub's and settled for much less than I deserve. Had I met her today me and her never would of never met or ever talked at all. I will see in spite of that she dose put forth a lot of effort in a sense so dose count for something. However She wants to be with me one and one of course that will never happen, and she knows how i feel about that. So far she's put up with cause but as things go further i dought she'll be able to hang on with me.
One of the things I plan on having happen with 3.3 is although I have 2 options kind of I need more choices. I need more girls initiating things asking me out more and have the aura have more of effect on other people. Of course more sex also and a much improved social circle. Granted 3.2 was powerful I never could get past my issues enough to ever really make it do what I needed it do. That said compared to even a a few years ago I'm leaps and bounds stronger than I used to be. With dancer especially ether me and her are going to the next level or I'm just going to end of replacing the both of them. Although singer is a nice girl I doubt she will be strong enough to be able to stand with me through the coming changes with this next version since it's already got her at the breaking point as it is with me and other females. With dmsi drama is to be expected.
As for (TID) effects still picturing and now having the feelings of what it would feel like and be like if even 3.2 was fully executed and how my life would change. Back before the last version I always wanted the effects to happen. This is back in Jan Feb. of this year, but I never really could see myself or much less felt how my life would be different if I was executing at 100%. I'm pretty sure going to have to rearrange some things in my life to accommodate the increased attention coming my way. I'm also much more honest about how my current relationships as well as future ones going to be. in that if it don't work i'm feel that i'm going to be ok that i have feeling of knowing i can attract new people to replace the old ones.
One of the things I've been hoping for and it had been going that way is for her to finally ditch that bump because even being by herself is better than being with him. Pretty much that's kind of how I got in the picture cause he's really not trying to help her and is the reason she in a mess in the first place. While I think he's a nice person he just not really trying to be with her. However she is determined to try and save him, but it's a total waste of time. She thinks if she runs out of him when he's sick she'll be a bad person. One of her friends did that to her man and she wants to do better than her. She knows how I feel about the situation and kind of keeps all that to her self, which is good. Cause i feel he's doing nothing but holding her back.
As a typical woman she would like us all to be friends some how i.e. get along and all big nice happy group. A few months ago we tried that didn't work out as well mainly cause everybody knew the situation of her trying to be around 2 guys openly and didn't workout so great. So she ending up putting one distance between us. Which has continued to this day. Yesterday however she kind of slipped up and said she's being helping him out some by taking him to the doctor and such. He's got a lot of health problems as well as addictions to stuff which makes it even worse. In it self that was minor but you have to keep in mind she rarely see's him maybe a once a week or less which I see her everyday. Still she hangs on to him and he's in the background somewhere. it's funny cause he knows i see her all the time He Also knows she cares for him since and they been together a long time so she always comes running back to him even though he's not serious of trying to be with her or trying to help his own self. So in a nutshell she probably with him trying to nurse him back to health or something. Which is all good I know I'll see her ether tomorrow or Friday so no big loss.
On the other side of things I have this singer girl I'm friends with and used to have more intimate relationship with her till one of my single mom friends got jealous and messed that up with causing a giant big fight. They had both been friends and singer didn't know i had been messing around with the single mom for so time. Of course the single mom got tired of all this and spilled the beans with the singer girl. So now me and singer are just friends i.e. just talking on the phone or sometimes going out to eat but no more sex. She dose care a lot for me, way more than I do for her. The issue is with her she cares for me too much. Often times she dose very foolish things in a effort to try to make me happy. In which also causes problems. The other mainly problem with her just a very negative person and complete opposite of me who is mainly positive. A nice person in a since but not someone I'm really physically attracted to. She comes from a time long ago before I did sub's and settled for much less than I deserve. Had I met her today me and her never would of never met or ever talked at all. I will see in spite of that she dose put forth a lot of effort in a sense so dose count for something. However She wants to be with me one and one of course that will never happen, and she knows how i feel about that. So far she's put up with cause but as things go further i dought she'll be able to hang on with me.
One of the things I plan on having happen with 3.3 is although I have 2 options kind of I need more choices. I need more girls initiating things asking me out more and have the aura have more of effect on other people. Of course more sex also and a much improved social circle. Granted 3.2 was powerful I never could get past my issues enough to ever really make it do what I needed it do. That said compared to even a a few years ago I'm leaps and bounds stronger than I used to be. With dancer especially ether me and her are going to the next level or I'm just going to end of replacing the both of them. Although singer is a nice girl I doubt she will be strong enough to be able to stand with me through the coming changes with this next version since it's already got her at the breaking point as it is with me and other females. With dmsi drama is to be expected.
As for (TID) effects still picturing and now having the feelings of what it would feel like and be like if even 3.2 was fully executed and how my life would change. Back before the last version I always wanted the effects to happen. This is back in Jan Feb. of this year, but I never really could see myself or much less felt how my life would be different if I was executing at 100%. I'm pretty sure going to have to rearrange some things in my life to accommodate the increased attention coming my way. I'm also much more honest about how my current relationships as well as future ones going to be. in that if it don't work i'm feel that i'm going to be ok that i have feeling of knowing i can attract new people to replace the old ones.
