12-02-2018, 03:54 AM
So I'm in a lull of motivation and energy. I went through an extremely productive phase and now am trying to get back on track. I'm struggling with having any purpose again - and back in a zone of having a lot to do but not caring all that much. I want to, and when I wake up in the morning it's there to some degree but right now it's just not.
I don't know why I should care about anything right now. It will be dull and repetitive but on SE there was this motive power because I respect myself as a being, I appreciate life and because of that respect and that gratitude for life there arose a desire to play my part in the game of life to the best of my ability. On MLS the joy of expanding my awareness and competence in learning layered on top of this.
Right now I'm like success for success' sake doesn't make sense. I've been trying to focus on a goal of rooting self esteem and learning but perhaps that's too much of an abstract goal to execute.
I noticed other people experienced 'spooky' phenomena. I had an experience like that the other night and wonder if auric shielding might be a useful thing for this sub if it isn't already in there.
I don't know why I should care about anything right now. It will be dull and repetitive but on SE there was this motive power because I respect myself as a being, I appreciate life and because of that respect and that gratitude for life there arose a desire to play my part in the game of life to the best of my ability. On MLS the joy of expanding my awareness and competence in learning layered on top of this.
Right now I'm like success for success' sake doesn't make sense. I've been trying to focus on a goal of rooting self esteem and learning but perhaps that's too much of an abstract goal to execute.
I noticed other people experienced 'spooky' phenomena. I had an experience like that the other night and wonder if auric shielding might be a useful thing for this sub if it isn't already in there.
Your task is not to seek for Love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.
