11-29-2018, 08:54 AM
Still feeling a bit ambivalent, but I think things are going in the right direction. Had some rather interesting thoughts and dreams tonight, a bit of the zany variety again. They seem to be indicating progress.
I believe the ambivalence is mostly due to the fact that fears are being targeted, oftentimes triggered noticeably because they're being drawn-out - so that's not exactly pleasant - but they're in the process of getting removed as it is happening - which is a good thing and feels pretty nice.
Planned to meet with my vocal coach today for the first time in two weeks, but she just called she can't make it and we're moving it to the weekend. Honestly? Not that bad, really. I'm still recovering physically from the sinus infection, so it might be better to pace myself. Going to solo Bardic practice tomorrow anyway.
Noticeable DMSI-like happening pretty much every day now. F. in. these past two days one of my more loyal responders (back from DMSI 3.1, I think?) is becoming definitely more... aggressive. And explicit. And this coming from a girl with, erm, deep Catholic conditioning plus a group of new "friends" from my showbiz circles who really don't like the fact someone dares to like me more than them, lol. Should be interesting to see how this develops.
I believe the ambivalence is mostly due to the fact that fears are being targeted, oftentimes triggered noticeably because they're being drawn-out - so that's not exactly pleasant - but they're in the process of getting removed as it is happening - which is a good thing and feels pretty nice.
Planned to meet with my vocal coach today for the first time in two weeks, but she just called she can't make it and we're moving it to the weekend. Honestly? Not that bad, really. I'm still recovering physically from the sinus infection, so it might be better to pace myself. Going to solo Bardic practice tomorrow anyway.
Noticeable DMSI-like happening pretty much every day now. F. in. these past two days one of my more loyal responders (back from DMSI 3.1, I think?) is becoming definitely more... aggressive. And explicit. And this coming from a girl with, erm, deep Catholic conditioning plus a group of new "friends" from my showbiz circles who really don't like the fact someone dares to like me more than them, lol. Should be interesting to see how this develops.
"A man who is doing his True Will has the inertia of the Universe to assist him." - A. Crowley
