(11-22-2018, 12:41 PM)Shannon Wrote: Can you talk about the difference between how this break feels compared to the first one?
I‘m not that introspective like some members here but I‘ll try. Basically it feels as though I‘m running the sub even though I‘m on a break. At least today, I have still one more day to go.
The last time I was on a break, I would go into negative mental spirals. I would think about one problem, then another one, then the third one and so on. Most of them would be "potential" problems. Meaning they may or may not happen. Then I would go over different scenarios in my head of how I was gonna solve these potential problems. Almost like a "mental tape". I would just end up feeling nervous and inadequate.
But today I wasn‘t engaging in these negative mental spirals and mental tapes. I would just brush it off with a clear thought of "I‘ll figure it out somehow when the time comes". I was more present. Also this time being productive was easier and natural as oppose to the previous break where I was still fairly productive, but it was a conscious effort.
Hope that helps
