11-13-2018, 08:00 AM
Touring from today, so I switched to nighttime listening while sleeping for the most part. Noticed one instance when I was feeling good and dozy, almost near going into deep restful sleep, when I experienced a sudden start, thought I heard two female voices yelling "NO" in my left ear (one was my ex's, the other I can't really tell), and became alert, but soon regained calmness and sleepiness after that (I felt good about it afterwards, as if something has cleared).
Had a dream, too, of the somewhat normal dream variety. Lots of things going on in it, one part pertained to a female I know, and then it somehow smoothly switched to a different scenario (as dreams are wont to do) where I was in my childhood room, and I noticed a cockroach infestation in it (a pretty serious one). So I got something like RAID to spray them roaches, kept spraying and spraying, they only seemed to be getting more numerous and would only move away from where I last sprayed, without seeming to drop. So I kept spraying, they moved directly to my bed and got all over it, I ran out of RAID, ran out of the room to find my father, asked him for more RAID to get rid of 'em roaches, he said there's very little left and I'll have to manage somehow. Got another huge, but near-empty can of RAID, and went to spray it on the roaches again, but there were only two or three weak puffs left in it. I think more stuff happened in the dream, but I do not remember exactly what, and I woke up soon after.
Getting the occasional physical fear reaction when listening to the subliminal, but they do tend to pass after a time. Sometimes I also experience quite a bit of sadness, but I often cannot tell what exactly I'm being sad about.
Had a dream, too, of the somewhat normal dream variety. Lots of things going on in it, one part pertained to a female I know, and then it somehow smoothly switched to a different scenario (as dreams are wont to do) where I was in my childhood room, and I noticed a cockroach infestation in it (a pretty serious one). So I got something like RAID to spray them roaches, kept spraying and spraying, they only seemed to be getting more numerous and would only move away from where I last sprayed, without seeming to drop. So I kept spraying, they moved directly to my bed and got all over it, I ran out of RAID, ran out of the room to find my father, asked him for more RAID to get rid of 'em roaches, he said there's very little left and I'll have to manage somehow. Got another huge, but near-empty can of RAID, and went to spray it on the roaches again, but there were only two or three weak puffs left in it. I think more stuff happened in the dream, but I do not remember exactly what, and I woke up soon after.
Getting the occasional physical fear reaction when listening to the subliminal, but they do tend to pass after a time. Sometimes I also experience quite a bit of sadness, but I often cannot tell what exactly I'm being sad about.
"A man who is doing his True Will has the inertia of the Universe to assist him." - A. Crowley
