11-05-2018, 08:48 AM
(This post was last modified: 11-05-2018, 08:48 AM by Have at ye.)
These last couple of days have not been the best of days. I think I made a mistake in my usage of USLMaxx and lowered the playback volume for this weeks' session, and I seem to have reacted to it through becoming a bit derpy (f. in. my sleep cycle is completely messed up right now 
So today I overslept instead of going to bardic practice, among other things. And the same thing happened on Friday), though family derpage did play a part in this.
The lowered volume seems to have allowed for a resistance reaction to take place. I am noticing thoughts like "I aa *soo* tired of living like this", emotional reactions of sadness, etc. Noticing way less motivation to do things and a desire for escapist entertainment.
At least whatever I'm doing for physical fitness is working extremely well. So I'm going to stick to it for as long as I can and see the results.
The shielding I'm employing does seem to be working too, though. Now I have a pretty good certainty that whatever derpage occurs is due to something internal, not external influence. I can also now usually tell the difference ASAP.
6th day of this ASRB session today. Then 3 days of break. Going to be switching to the updated version once it's released.
Going to attempt to fix my sleep cycle the hard way today.
So today I overslept instead of going to bardic practice, among other things. And the same thing happened on Friday), though family derpage did play a part in this.The lowered volume seems to have allowed for a resistance reaction to take place. I am noticing thoughts like "I aa *soo* tired of living like this", emotional reactions of sadness, etc. Noticing way less motivation to do things and a desire for escapist entertainment.
At least whatever I'm doing for physical fitness is working extremely well. So I'm going to stick to it for as long as I can and see the results.
The shielding I'm employing does seem to be working too, though. Now I have a pretty good certainty that whatever derpage occurs is due to something internal, not external influence. I can also now usually tell the difference ASAP.
6th day of this ASRB session today. Then 3 days of break. Going to be switching to the updated version once it's released.
Going to attempt to fix my sleep cycle the hard way today.
"A man who is doing his True Will has the inertia of the Universe to assist him." - A. Crowley
