10-18-2018, 12:12 AM
3 nights of B.
I just had a not a nice feeling dream.
It was kinda like I was back in highschool (but not, as everything was different). I walked into class where boys couple boys from my primary school years and high school years. I was happy and very talkative and very sociable with them. One of them said something back to me and little while after I realised he was being funny with me, as he said what he meant in a different way and was using sarcasm to basically say I talk too much.
This actually hurt my feelings and I tried to not let it get to me. I tried talking to the other boy and he started giving me this hard shoulder too and being funny with me as if they didn't like me.
I felt hurt and wondering why they are doing this to me. It was a horrible feeling (I remember one of the boys, the second one actually saying to me in real life when I was in primary school, that he don't want to be friends with me, totally out of the blue and no reason for it, I can't remember how I felt, maybe I felt really bad like I did in this dream?)
I went outside I saw other people and women and had a strong desire to go speak to new women. Shortly after remembered DMSI will bring up other peoples insecurities as I get more attractive and I started thinking they the boys were being like this to me because I am increasing in social, sexual value etc. Then thinking if people act like this to me it's not good.
Then the 2nd boy I mentioned before came up to me but looked like he was a girl now and said she/he wanted to make amends and buy me a drink. I thought about it for a few seconds then she started to walk away thinking I did not want to. She then sat with her friend, then saying no I do not want to be involved with you, you have been charged with murder (Whilst emotionally repelled and upset and saying it loud so everyone around can hear) I then suddenly felt like I have been charged with murder and awaiting trial, feeling guilty about killing someone and everyone thinking I am a murderer and wanting nothing to do with me. I felt feelings that are hard to describe, like absolute humiliation, rejection and being totally misunderstood, with them boys etc being so stupid and not seeing I am a good, genuine guy with good intentions and they are being horrible to me for no reason.
Later on I saw a car drive pass with other boys that I have negative associations with from my past that were from another school. Around when I was about age 12. The boy I saw I had "fights" with his brother. I say fights, I never fought back and was humiliated in front of lots of people the first time where he was just hitting me over and over and I never fought. I ended up crying and walking off and letting lots of boys and girls from my school see this.
Anyway when I saw that boy in the car driving past, I felt them feelings from back then and felt a desire to get my revenge to make a point.
(These guys wouldn't stand a chance now because I am a highly trained fighter of years of experience in Amateur boxing, Tae kwon Do, Thai Boxing, Wing Chun Kung-fu and now Krav Maga. But in waking life I have forgiven and forgot these people from my past, even though apart of me would love to kick their ass now lol. I would only fight in self defense.)
It's interesting dream indeed, especially involving the first two boys from my past, and them being like that with me. Something underneath the hood must be going on, right.
I just had a not a nice feeling dream.
It was kinda like I was back in highschool (but not, as everything was different). I walked into class where boys couple boys from my primary school years and high school years. I was happy and very talkative and very sociable with them. One of them said something back to me and little while after I realised he was being funny with me, as he said what he meant in a different way and was using sarcasm to basically say I talk too much.
This actually hurt my feelings and I tried to not let it get to me. I tried talking to the other boy and he started giving me this hard shoulder too and being funny with me as if they didn't like me.
I felt hurt and wondering why they are doing this to me. It was a horrible feeling (I remember one of the boys, the second one actually saying to me in real life when I was in primary school, that he don't want to be friends with me, totally out of the blue and no reason for it, I can't remember how I felt, maybe I felt really bad like I did in this dream?)
I went outside I saw other people and women and had a strong desire to go speak to new women. Shortly after remembered DMSI will bring up other peoples insecurities as I get more attractive and I started thinking they the boys were being like this to me because I am increasing in social, sexual value etc. Then thinking if people act like this to me it's not good.
Then the 2nd boy I mentioned before came up to me but looked like he was a girl now and said she/he wanted to make amends and buy me a drink. I thought about it for a few seconds then she started to walk away thinking I did not want to. She then sat with her friend, then saying no I do not want to be involved with you, you have been charged with murder (Whilst emotionally repelled and upset and saying it loud so everyone around can hear) I then suddenly felt like I have been charged with murder and awaiting trial, feeling guilty about killing someone and everyone thinking I am a murderer and wanting nothing to do with me. I felt feelings that are hard to describe, like absolute humiliation, rejection and being totally misunderstood, with them boys etc being so stupid and not seeing I am a good, genuine guy with good intentions and they are being horrible to me for no reason.
Later on I saw a car drive pass with other boys that I have negative associations with from my past that were from another school. Around when I was about age 12. The boy I saw I had "fights" with his brother. I say fights, I never fought back and was humiliated in front of lots of people the first time where he was just hitting me over and over and I never fought. I ended up crying and walking off and letting lots of boys and girls from my school see this.
Anyway when I saw that boy in the car driving past, I felt them feelings from back then and felt a desire to get my revenge to make a point.
(These guys wouldn't stand a chance now because I am a highly trained fighter of years of experience in Amateur boxing, Tae kwon Do, Thai Boxing, Wing Chun Kung-fu and now Krav Maga. But in waking life I have forgiven and forgot these people from my past, even though apart of me would love to kick their ass now lol. I would only fight in self defense.)
It's interesting dream indeed, especially involving the first two boys from my past, and them being like that with me. Something underneath the hood must be going on, right.
