10-12-2018, 05:28 PM
(10-12-2018, 04:23 PM)RTBoss Wrote: Leading up to running this program, I've had some TID experiences and dreams. I even asked Shannon if he was including USLM into DMSI 3.3, as I was just sure that I was going straight from 3.2 to 3.3, and had some pretty "lucky" and successful happenings that normally would have went a different way for me. Next thing you know, I find myself purchasing USLM with the intent to run USLMax. And I am.
Dreams have involved my best friend from high school, who's now an MD. I consider him my most successful friend, as he has awesome work/life balance, a ton of disposable income, a fine family, and he's just a happy, good-natured person. We consider each other more blood-family, just like brothers. Anyway, in these dreams we either are traveling to exotic locals that only the "privileged" would be able to do, or we're in a classroom setting in a University - doing Graduate coursework - and I've been skipping classes, while he's done all of his work. He knows this, and insists on helping me catch up. I've had at least 3 of those dreams during this week leading up to running USLMax last night.
Oddly, I don't remember any dreams from last night.
Today, I've been extremely tired. This is from numerous factors, and may or may not directly be related to USLMax. I got two kids with crazy energy, sleep has been screwy, and I've been up to other things that have drained my energy completely. 'Nuff said about that.
Had a few bouts of low patience, high irritability and anger this morning. After getting some quiet time, I was surprised to find myself deeply relaxed and quite reflective. At one point, I dropped cereal for the kids all over the floor, and instead of losing my temper, I thought, "Hey, this is an opportunity to practice a meditative relaxation exercise by calmly counting the cheerios as I pick them up off the floor." It's a little thing, but a surprising change of attitude. Reminded me of doing something like in the Karate Kid - taking normal everyday shit and reframing it as a discipline for success.
I also found myself making a checklist of the things I'm skilled at, and the things I love. I watched a segment on the Today show about a super-successful young girl (who's successful in a multitude of ways) and found my initial reaction to be resentful, and then it quickly changed to a realization that resentment is the reaction of someone with a failure-based mindset. Why would a successful person do anything other than identify and positively relate with another successful person? The girl talked about all the "haters" she had at the outset, and how she overcame them with positivity and assertiveness, and used it to help others to stand up to people who bully, put you down, or try to keep you from bettering your life. She then talked about becoming successful by doing what you love, hence my mental checklist.
Positive thinking positive attitude seemed very apparent today, reframing negative attitudes to the positive and whatnot.
Wife is being exposed, as well, when she isn't working a night shift. She must have been tired, too, as she fell asleep on the couch this afternoon with lights on and plenty of noise to keep a person up. We'll see if she reports anything unusual to me. I haven't asked any questions. She is aware she's listening to USLMax.
I like your self-awareness.
