10-12-2018, 06:27 PM
Totally jumped aboard the hype-train and going to spend this month USLMaxing. I did have a serious suspicion for some time that I've been experiencing TID-effects of this these past several weeks.
NOTE: Still have about 13 days of DMSI ver. 3.2 P6 to go after I stopped actively listening to it.
Started running the program, took a nap. Had lucid dreams, did stuff while I was at it. Pretty much a continuation of what I've been doing lately albeit focused on various aspects of myself. Everything seems to indicate that this is going to work. Experienced some fear during and after waking up, manageable though; nothing more than a light spook, like as if something heavy dropped to the floor unexpectedly and made a loud sound.
I'm noticing I am experiencing the emotion of doubt. Doubting myself. But - I am in the process of coming to terms with it. I mean, doubt itself is not a bad thing; it is impractical, though, and may lead to preemptive self-sabotage due to the fear of "but what if I'm wrong?" The practical approach would be: conceptualize a thing, do a thing, test it, question it while you're testing it (analyze it), check results, repeat until you've got what you were setting out to do. Simple.
I am also noticing I am somewhat, I dunno, radicalizing in my approach to life, and in my thoughts and ideas. A lot of the doubt I am experiencing is related to this. "What if I am taking this fierce a stand, and then it turns out that I was wrong?" So-called common sense would indicate I'm bonkers.
But "common sense" is an idiot, isn't he?
By the by, this is happening real fast. I am in the middle of loop 4. Hybrid Trickling Stream/Silent, FLAC, headphones. Considering purchasing an audio player gizmo of some sort to be better able to play 6 loops/day when on the go, preferably with portable mini speakers of some sort so that I can play the ultrasonic track when moving about without the need for earplugs. In the interim, I can use my phone, but the battery's shite, so better plan ahead.
NOTE: Still have about 13 days of DMSI ver. 3.2 P6 to go after I stopped actively listening to it.
Started running the program, took a nap. Had lucid dreams, did stuff while I was at it. Pretty much a continuation of what I've been doing lately albeit focused on various aspects of myself. Everything seems to indicate that this is going to work. Experienced some fear during and after waking up, manageable though; nothing more than a light spook, like as if something heavy dropped to the floor unexpectedly and made a loud sound.
I'm noticing I am experiencing the emotion of doubt. Doubting myself. But - I am in the process of coming to terms with it. I mean, doubt itself is not a bad thing; it is impractical, though, and may lead to preemptive self-sabotage due to the fear of "but what if I'm wrong?" The practical approach would be: conceptualize a thing, do a thing, test it, question it while you're testing it (analyze it), check results, repeat until you've got what you were setting out to do. Simple.
I am also noticing I am somewhat, I dunno, radicalizing in my approach to life, and in my thoughts and ideas. A lot of the doubt I am experiencing is related to this. "What if I am taking this fierce a stand, and then it turns out that I was wrong?" So-called common sense would indicate I'm bonkers.
But "common sense" is an idiot, isn't he?
By the by, this is happening real fast. I am in the middle of loop 4. Hybrid Trickling Stream/Silent, FLAC, headphones. Considering purchasing an audio player gizmo of some sort to be better able to play 6 loops/day when on the go, preferably with portable mini speakers of some sort so that I can play the ultrasonic track when moving about without the need for earplugs. In the interim, I can use my phone, but the battery's shite, so better plan ahead.
"A man who is doing his True Will has the inertia of the Universe to assist him." - A. Crowley
Never even listened to this particular song before, just noticed it on "youtube recommends" and pressed play because I liked the title. Can't stop listening to it now, haha.
