08-24-2018, 08:40 AM
Actually i am heading for the transition into stage 2.
My present situation feels a bit strange as follows:
As far as i can remember i got several strong dreams (even waking up) with some fictional family scenes. But in the end showing me a little where patterns of behavior and thoughts have been build up for years.
For now the faint feeling of increasing self esteem has vanished, making place for more annoyance with myself and my life. There is a strong tendency to kind of isolate myself from social activity.
It is like there is a permanent condition of feeling restless/nervous inside making it rather hard to relax in both ways, mental and physical.
Thoughts seem to rush around in a crazy speed on obviously an infinite number of topics (real life related but also fictional stuff - like a permanent scanning for something i can not name yet), making it hard to focus and calm down, as this is somehow never finished with kind of a result.
Let´s see how things go on.
My present situation feels a bit strange as follows:
As far as i can remember i got several strong dreams (even waking up) with some fictional family scenes. But in the end showing me a little where patterns of behavior and thoughts have been build up for years.
For now the faint feeling of increasing self esteem has vanished, making place for more annoyance with myself and my life. There is a strong tendency to kind of isolate myself from social activity.
It is like there is a permanent condition of feeling restless/nervous inside making it rather hard to relax in both ways, mental and physical.
Thoughts seem to rush around in a crazy speed on obviously an infinite number of topics (real life related but also fictional stuff - like a permanent scanning for something i can not name yet), making it hard to focus and calm down, as this is somehow never finished with kind of a result.
Let´s see how things go on.
