11-22-2014, 11:59 AM
Today I had a shocking experience which I kringed at the thought of. I realized that my whole life has been ran by someone else. I've been giving people power to say things to me, treat me bad, basically becoming there reality and perception. The worst was when I was in 7th Grade and all the girls used to love me, they always used to fight over me but some guys didn't think I deserved them so they tried to lower my value by making fun of how I looked, my name everything they could think of because they couldn't accept the fact that I was attractive and it wasn't in there reality. The sad part is I let them and in turn it destroyed my self esteem and confidence big time. It only grew worse as time past, so called friends making fun of me and I letting it happen. I lived in the shadows because I was afraid I was going to be made fun off. Now the only question is, how do I handle this so I become a better more Alpha Male? It hurts so bad to think I let so many people walk over me and control my life based on how they perceived me to be.