Shannon's Journal Discussion Volume 3

[Shannon]

I’m debating on wether or not to quit my DMSI run. I keep getting more and more tired which totally fucks up my other activities like studying/ gym / daily life. I listen 9 loops at night for like 3 days now in a row. I have exams in a few days and I can’t even concentrate anymore on my textbooks. The more I increase my loops the more i’m agressively resisting against the sub.... It doesn’t work out for me. I can’t break through.

I don’t know what the **** is wrong with me i’m so damn frustrated it’s not funny anymore.
I’ve tortured myself for weeks with this dmsi v3.2 sub and got nothing out of it. Apparently it doesn’t work for me and that’s okay. Some people just don’t respond to it.

I think i’m gonna have a break and just let the program run out and i’ll come back when the final version is released because this isn’t working for me. Way too taxing on my mind and body. God damnit I hate my self so much for resisting it. I’m totally broken and frustrated and I have to take my math and physics exams in 2 days and it’s not looking good. Too much taxing on the body and mind, never thought I would be resisting so hard. I’m ***** up beyond repair.

I’m sorry that I let you guys down.

Why do you think you let someone down? It's an experimental sub, and you need to focus on something else.