Darwin’s Journal

[Darwinn]

Crazy weekend - around 6 unlikely occurrences ranging from just finding a parking spot right outside a restaurant in the centre of the city (i live in one of the busiest cities in the world - that just doesn't happen) to someone calling me up to view a house - since i'm looking to buy one , which again seemed quite perfect.

I'm feeling more motivated, and have accomplished a lot - i've started going through a coding course, cooked an amazing meal for some relatives, cleaned the house - the list goes on.

I'm having some strange emotions - somehow i'm thinking a lot about the preciousness of life, and the emptiness of it. i'm looking after my old dad. It feels like life is moving along, i'm with a woman i love, getting a home, and before i know it i'll be an old man myself. There's something sad about it. Somehow it makes me deeply aware of how insignificant i am in the scheme of life, and at the end i and ll that i love will be just be a faded memory - if even that. i've never felt this before and i don't know why the f it's happening now, and if it's related to this sub. It's a heavy grief , but also a deep love.