07-31-2018, 04:48 AM
I've not run a business for myself out of thinking I'd be dependent on other males to assist me. I'm scared of that.
I am pushing myself to initiate my business I've paid for, using tools I've paid for, and I'm not wanting to. It's easy. Inexpensive. And profitable. Why? What is my roadblock?
I think of my brother, the closest one to me (during childhood), and I think "it'll happen again!"
That's why I'm not doing anything. It's not even procrastination, seeing I've set up my Adwords ad campaign almost entirely (not a simple task). Made my YT ad video months back while on DMSI. And I have money to begin my ad.
It's fear. Fear is what I've used to protect me. I've been here in this fear a long, long time.
And now I'm on Universal Detox, purposely. I'd run Develop a Zen Attitude the night before since it's 4G (resistance? yeah), and I desired change last night, so I ran 6 loops of UD. I'd been running 8 loops mostly this whole run so far, but not seeing change, I wondered if my mind was able to process it. Going back to 6 loops works, as I'm writing.
UD is actively working on my brother issue. This is major stuff.
I am pushing myself to initiate my business I've paid for, using tools I've paid for, and I'm not wanting to. It's easy. Inexpensive. And profitable. Why? What is my roadblock?
I think of my brother, the closest one to me (during childhood), and I think "it'll happen again!"
That's why I'm not doing anything. It's not even procrastination, seeing I've set up my Adwords ad campaign almost entirely (not a simple task). Made my YT ad video months back while on DMSI. And I have money to begin my ad.
It's fear. Fear is what I've used to protect me. I've been here in this fear a long, long time.
And now I'm on Universal Detox, purposely. I'd run Develop a Zen Attitude the night before since it's 4G (resistance? yeah), and I desired change last night, so I ran 6 loops of UD. I'd been running 8 loops mostly this whole run so far, but not seeing change, I wondered if my mind was able to process it. Going back to 6 loops works, as I'm writing.
UD is actively working on my brother issue. This is major stuff.
I want to be FREE!
