07-24-2018, 11:35 AM
I went to an ACA meeting last night. I was anxious when considering certain bad experiences I'd had, but a new mindset is looking beyond the past and looking into possibilities I'd not seen. I shared 2ce and saw numerous emotional connections I'd not seen before. Will go back.
I'm slightly grieving as I write. Why? I've been trying to hang on to familiar things (and feelings), and fear is something I've held to, to protect me. It's what I've ran by for many, many years. UD seems to unhook me from old escape/hideout patterns, and I felt this while writing.
Life has gotten small listening to fear. I'll stop analyzing this, as I'm kicking an old unvaluable can around which, strangely enough, has both helped me and also hurt me. I'm running UD now. What I'm realizing is that me analyzing is me attempting to derail change.
Going forward. Grieving too. It means change is happening.
I'm slightly grieving as I write. Why? I've been trying to hang on to familiar things (and feelings), and fear is something I've held to, to protect me. It's what I've ran by for many, many years. UD seems to unhook me from old escape/hideout patterns, and I felt this while writing.
Life has gotten small listening to fear. I'll stop analyzing this, as I'm kicking an old unvaluable can around which, strangely enough, has both helped me and also hurt me. I'm running UD now. What I'm realizing is that me analyzing is me attempting to derail change.
Going forward. Grieving too. It means change is happening.
I want to be FREE!
