Magnus' journal

[Magnus]

Thanks Shannon. That does make a lot of sense. Ill work on accepting change bit by bit. Also focusing more on my emotions which is something i've had a big issue with my whole life. Even though at the moment I feel quite emotionally stable I have to learn to flow with the emotions. Its interesting this came up as I was discussing a fear with my therapist this week around fearing I will be stuck in an emotional state forever.

I also had a bit of a revelation this morning after reading your post I actually fear that my fears aren't being dealt with and that i'm just covering them up until they get triggered off again. This again stems from all the change work I did last time and feeling like my fears had been dealt with when in actual fact I had just stuck a false kind of confidence on top of my fears. I do realize that my fears are being dealt with and I can tell that because of how much more relaxed i'm becoming and how I am slowly bit by bit starting to act differently in situations.

As for AM had an interesting situation last night where someone elbowed me in the stomach usually I would have passed this off and been to scared to react in the situation but last night I got quite angry at the guy and asked him what he thought he was doing. I took it a bit to far and ended up getting really angry at the guy which almost ended up in a fight between his friends and my friends but thankfully left the situation before anything happened.