Magnus' journal

[Shannon]

Very true. I think I will start to accept its just going to take me a while. I have to remember that I've only been on AM 3 months. I think as AM then SM pushes me to expand my comfort zone I will believe. AM has already pushed my comfort zone a bit but pretty much all "results" so far are internal which is what I need but at the same time I always measure everything by external "results".

The thing I like so far is that I haven't been pushed a mile outside my comfort zone but rather just gradual increments towards that mile.

Any extra ideas on how to uncreate those limits and start really believing that there are no limits?

The first step is always to recognize the situation as pertaining to it's needing to change. You have done that.

The second step is acknowledgement that something needs to change. You have done that too.

The third step is analysis of the problem to best understand how and why to make the changes necessary. In your case, you say something interesting:

AM has already pushed my comfort zone a bit but pretty much all "results" so far are internal which is what I need but at the same time I always measure everything by external "results".

This is interesting because it suggests that your logical side has concluded that anything besides itself is invalid. That is to say, if you do not see external results - results in the world around you - there are no results. Which is further to say that you are denying yourself, because your logical mind is only part of you; there are also your emotions. Emotions are always internal and subjective. You are insisting on objective "results".

And the funny thing is, you have seen and reported objective results, but you deny them too! Which means you are in denial, and that is a defense mechanism. Which typically points to fear, and in this case, I think your fear is fear of being disappointed. I can't be sure about my conclusion based on what you've said, but it seems that you became very disillusioned with the methods you tried previously, and to defend yourself against further feeling hat way, you seem to have become too skeptical. Too skeptical is when you go from requiring proof to accept, to refusing to accept even with a reasonable amount of evidence. That's based on denial and fear, usually fear of the stability of one's world view. That is also a possibility here.

The way to deal with this? I would say just ease into it. Do little steps at a time. As you see these changes, accept them as being changes and results, and move on. Make it a gradual change. Like the change itself.