07-03-2018, 06:26 PM
The thing I’m ashamed to admit is this. Let me just be clear, I love my father. I love him the way any son should. But this is what bothers me:
The man done nothing with his life. He was married to my mother for 24 years in a tumultuous marriage which he himself ruined with his egoism and temper. He now lives with my uncle, pays no rent, has no job, no hobbies and no life. He has all this free time and does nothing with it.
Meanwhile I’m going back to school to qualify myself for a better paying job as an instrument technician, I’m trying my damndest to get into shape or at least healthy. I have a few hobbies, which I will spend more time on once I’m finished with school and sufficiently employed. I’ve already taken steps to take some responsibility for my own life such as paying my own bills and paying my mother rent monthly. I’m not quite on my own yet but I’m working on it.
Maybe I’m not that much better than he is, but I’m definitely trying. I’m doing something after all. He does nothing productive with his time.
Yet somehow, I still shrink up when he starts to raise his voice at me.
The man done nothing with his life. He was married to my mother for 24 years in a tumultuous marriage which he himself ruined with his egoism and temper. He now lives with my uncle, pays no rent, has no job, no hobbies and no life. He has all this free time and does nothing with it.
Meanwhile I’m going back to school to qualify myself for a better paying job as an instrument technician, I’m trying my damndest to get into shape or at least healthy. I have a few hobbies, which I will spend more time on once I’m finished with school and sufficiently employed. I’ve already taken steps to take some responsibility for my own life such as paying my own bills and paying my mother rent monthly. I’m not quite on my own yet but I’m working on it.
Maybe I’m not that much better than he is, but I’m definitely trying. I’m doing something after all. He does nothing productive with his time.
Yet somehow, I still shrink up when he starts to raise his voice at me.
“When you change yourself...you change the world”
-Silvera, Gojira
-Silvera, Gojira
