So there are two issues that are concerning me a bit.
1) I feel like I’m looking for any and every little thing I can rationalize as the program working instead of just letting it work. And Im starting to realize that on some occasions I’ve been journaling just to journal to make myself feel better about my so-called progress. Basically bull-shitting myself and not admitting to myself that either nothing significant has happened yet or if it has I haven’t noticed it. I guess since I’m past stage 1 it just feels like I’m not getting anywhere. Maybe I just respond to the program differently but it could be something more worrisome which leads me to issue number 2...
2) Having learned about stonewalling, I’m beginning to worry that I might be a stonewaller. (I know crazy right? I’m worrying about worrying). Do I have proof of this? Admittedly no. But I think it’s a legitimate concern.
I do believe that this program works. I believe in the power of the mind and that changing your mind can change your life. I’ve seen the journals of other sub users who have made astronomical changes in their lives because of this sub and others.
I just need to get past this discouragement...it’s really getting to me.
1) I feel like I’m looking for any and every little thing I can rationalize as the program working instead of just letting it work. And Im starting to realize that on some occasions I’ve been journaling just to journal to make myself feel better about my so-called progress. Basically bull-shitting myself and not admitting to myself that either nothing significant has happened yet or if it has I haven’t noticed it. I guess since I’m past stage 1 it just feels like I’m not getting anywhere. Maybe I just respond to the program differently but it could be something more worrisome which leads me to issue number 2...
2) Having learned about stonewalling, I’m beginning to worry that I might be a stonewaller. (I know crazy right? I’m worrying about worrying). Do I have proof of this? Admittedly no. But I think it’s a legitimate concern.
I do believe that this program works. I believe in the power of the mind and that changing your mind can change your life. I’ve seen the journals of other sub users who have made astronomical changes in their lives because of this sub and others.
I just need to get past this discouragement...it’s really getting to me.
“When you change yourself...you change the world”
-Silvera, Gojira
-Silvera, Gojira
