06-11-2018, 04:15 AM
(06-03-2018, 06:43 AM)THolt Wrote:(06-03-2018, 06:14 AM)JCasterlin Wrote: Day 3 - Getting the instructed listening time in as I set a playlist with six SE tracks. Making sure I don't accidentally put it on loop so it stops when the sixth track is done. I feel really good this morning. I have been thinking about how I have always done things I didn't want to do out of fear or some guilt imposed sense of obligation. I now understand how unhealthy & toxic that is. I am having a difficult time putting into words how I feel. In some ways it feels like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders. Or is at least easing up. I feel it's because for so long I've had so many mental & emotional attachments to how I , other people, or situations in general should be that I made myself miserable when that wasn't the case. I now see how all of that was or is driven by ego, unrealistic expectations, & possibly a need for control. Its liberating to realize that & start to learn to let go.How do you feel SE is affecting your interactions with other people?
So far SE has helped a lot with that. Especially at work when dealing with negotiation situations. I've been far more assertive & felt far less needy . Almost zero desire to seek any sort of validation. I've embraced minimalism for the last several years & now with running SE its become more about asking myself if I really need something or can it wait? I don't feel the desire or need to interrupt people when they're talking. I never would have thought that so many of the issues I've been having were or are tied to low self esteem but now that very much seems to be the case
