04-03-2018, 02:47 AM
I'm giving PTPA a shot and since there are no journals around I'll scribble down the things I notice.
The resistance on DMSI 3.2-A became too much for me. I sabotaged myself successfully. It'd be nice to see how life would look like if I internalized and acted upon dimsee, but I don't stress myself about it. It has never been too high on my agenda. And to be honest, this hypersexualization on all levels kind of disgusts me. But it also makes me realize how strong our biological wiring really is. Bla bla, whatever.
I chose PTPA because I think it is the closest thing to something LTU-and-EIP-like at the moment that is relatively up-to-date technologically. I am currently using the hybrid. This is day two.
Yesterday (making it day one all you math wizards) I suddenly became very happy during the second (of three) loops, with smiling and all, as well as this expanding feeling in my chest, like overflowing joy. Later, I had a night full of dreams, a lot to do with me not being in control (occupying the backseat's of cars, having no influence in regard to the course, etc.).
My overarching theme with these subs is still to spark a strong, ever-expanding lust for life. Maybe PTPA will be able to unlock yet another door towards that goal. Let's see.
The resistance on DMSI 3.2-A became too much for me. I sabotaged myself successfully. It'd be nice to see how life would look like if I internalized and acted upon dimsee, but I don't stress myself about it. It has never been too high on my agenda. And to be honest, this hypersexualization on all levels kind of disgusts me. But it also makes me realize how strong our biological wiring really is. Bla bla, whatever.
I chose PTPA because I think it is the closest thing to something LTU-and-EIP-like at the moment that is relatively up-to-date technologically. I am currently using the hybrid. This is day two.
Yesterday (making it day one all you math wizards) I suddenly became very happy during the second (of three) loops, with smiling and all, as well as this expanding feeling in my chest, like overflowing joy. Later, I had a night full of dreams, a lot to do with me not being in control (occupying the backseat's of cars, having no influence in regard to the course, etc.).
My overarching theme with these subs is still to spark a strong, ever-expanding lust for life. Maybe PTPA will be able to unlock yet another door towards that goal. Let's see.
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