SE 5.5g Progress

[JCasterlin]

Day 10 - For the last several years I have been on a mission of sorts to become mentally & emotionally mature. Far beyond what I have been at whatever point in my life I was. I always found a way subconsciously to sabotage my best efforts no matter what my intentions were at the beginning. I can now say that I see this finally becoming a reality. Like I said in my last post , I have learned to delay gratification as well as think & plan ahead instead of throwing a monkey wrench into what I was trying to achieve as I did in the past. I continue to surprise my supervisor at work with my willingness to learn the skills necessary to become great at my job. Even though I was awarded Employee of the Month for April I missed a few days in May & struggled for most of the month. In the process I feel that I lost some of the respect my supervisor has for me. I've now taken the initiative to remain as focused & committed as possible. Not allowing myself to get distracted or engage in unnecessary & time consuming socializing.
Yesterday I also submitted four online applications for a second job I now understand is necessary for the time being. Previously I was concerned that it would possibly interfere with my main job but I now know that by not being so stressed out about finances I will be able to focus more on improving at my main job. Being someone who has embraced minimalism the idea of adding something seems a bit contradictory but considering my goals it makes a lot of sense. Its not permanent. Eventually & hopefully sooner rather than later I will be able to completely embrace what's important to me for who I am . That is self mastery & freedom.