06-10-2018, 06:43 AM
I find my self immensely fascinated with things. I had a wild appreciation for the work that went into a beautiful large Art Deco building; my mind automatically deconstructed the whole thing into steel girders, cement, bricks and i marveled at the precision and integrity of action that went into it's construction.
Not so useful for my day to day life though
Aside from that I'm finding my general fluid intelligence seems to be better, for example i'm able to rely on my subconscious to pass me useful information, and am able to read complex material with improved focus and interest.
I'm also immensely happy and seeking to optimise the balance between enjoyment of life outside of professional pursuits and excelling at my profession.
Resistance is coming in a few forms.
(1) eating things that slow down cognition for me. Starchy wheat based products mainly.
(2) procrastinating on work; largely through perfectionism - 'this is not good enough, should i do something else?'
(3) overthinking and over abstraction; there's a point where thinking is not the way and you have to 'do'. I note i resist taking useful actions by winding myself into a thought soup of possibilities - i identify it as resistance because it clearly prevents me from taking positive steps such as doing yoga, exercise or meditation. It's not 'proper thinking' which is intentional, it's just a whirlwind of doubtful voices
(4) Phone addiction, this has increased (or possibly i've become more aware of it). I have an app which has my phone screen time at 4-5 hours a day which is sickening.
(5) umming and ahing about life direction and goals - always have done this and to an extent it's better on the sub so probably not resistance; the need for clear goals and strategy is brought up and i'm slowly working toward having some kind of clarity on this.
An interesting effect is that i feel like sexual energy is being diverted from the lower areas of my being to the higher. I don't know if this is the sub or the yoga.
Not so useful for my day to day life though
Aside from that I'm finding my general fluid intelligence seems to be better, for example i'm able to rely on my subconscious to pass me useful information, and am able to read complex material with improved focus and interest.
I'm also immensely happy and seeking to optimise the balance between enjoyment of life outside of professional pursuits and excelling at my profession.
Resistance is coming in a few forms.
(1) eating things that slow down cognition for me. Starchy wheat based products mainly.
(2) procrastinating on work; largely through perfectionism - 'this is not good enough, should i do something else?'
(3) overthinking and over abstraction; there's a point where thinking is not the way and you have to 'do'. I note i resist taking useful actions by winding myself into a thought soup of possibilities - i identify it as resistance because it clearly prevents me from taking positive steps such as doing yoga, exercise or meditation. It's not 'proper thinking' which is intentional, it's just a whirlwind of doubtful voices
(4) Phone addiction, this has increased (or possibly i've become more aware of it). I have an app which has my phone screen time at 4-5 hours a day which is sickening.
(5) umming and ahing about life direction and goals - always have done this and to an extent it's better on the sub so probably not resistance; the need for clear goals and strategy is brought up and i'm slowly working toward having some kind of clarity on this.
An interesting effect is that i feel like sexual energy is being diverted from the lower areas of my being to the higher. I don't know if this is the sub or the yoga.
Your task is not to seek for Love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.
