06-05-2018, 05:11 AM
Day 5 - This is the most fun I've had with a sub so far . I don't realistically expect for every day to be this way . I've switched to only listening to while I sleep for the instructed loops. I am using the Ocean Surf Hybrid version. I thought it might be difficult to sleep while its playing but its incredibly relaxing. I have woken up the last couple of days feeling better than I have in a long time.
I had a dream last night or early this morning about being a bigger guy and wanting/needing to lose weight and get lean. I've always wondered how much of my issues with weight have been psychological and now I know. I can see over time as I listen to the sub how I will have the increasing desire to take care of myself. I was told so many times be it in my teens, twenties, or early thirties that I need to love myself first. I now understand why that's so important. If I'm right Shannon said you don't need to believe the subs will work for them to do what they need to do. I would think though that it would go a long way if you felt you deserved them to work for you. I've spent a lot of my life quitting or giving up on things because I didn't feel like I should have or be able to do something I really wanted. I now see how that not only caused me to sabotage myself but also lose out on things I may have really enjoyed. I'm not doing that ever again.
I now at least to a point understand why I've been struggling with progress at my career/job. I have been feeling that I didn't deserve to do as well as others. Or make the commissions that other people have. I let ego get in the way. One of my favorite quotes " in order to be good or great at something you first have to suck at it "
As I mentioned before I've been reading the Six Pillars of Self Esteem and it's started helping to understand how I have not only gotten in my own way but how to change that as my self esteem increases
I had a dream last night or early this morning about being a bigger guy and wanting/needing to lose weight and get lean. I've always wondered how much of my issues with weight have been psychological and now I know. I can see over time as I listen to the sub how I will have the increasing desire to take care of myself. I was told so many times be it in my teens, twenties, or early thirties that I need to love myself first. I now understand why that's so important. If I'm right Shannon said you don't need to believe the subs will work for them to do what they need to do. I would think though that it would go a long way if you felt you deserved them to work for you. I've spent a lot of my life quitting or giving up on things because I didn't feel like I should have or be able to do something I really wanted. I now see how that not only caused me to sabotage myself but also lose out on things I may have really enjoyed. I'm not doing that ever again.
I now at least to a point understand why I've been struggling with progress at my career/job. I have been feeling that I didn't deserve to do as well as others. Or make the commissions that other people have. I let ego get in the way. One of my favorite quotes " in order to be good or great at something you first have to suck at it "
As I mentioned before I've been reading the Six Pillars of Self Esteem and it's started helping to understand how I have not only gotten in my own way but how to change that as my self esteem increases
