SE 5.5g Progress

[JCasterlin]

Day 3 - Getting the instructed listening time in as I set a playlist with six SE tracks. Making sure I don't accidentally put it on loop so it stops when the sixth track is done. I feel really good this morning. I have been thinking about how I have always done things I didn't want to do out of fear or some guilt imposed sense of obligation. I now understand how unhealthy & toxic that is. I am having a difficult time putting into words how I feel. In some ways it feels like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders. Or is at least easing up. I feel it's because for so long I've had so many mental & emotional attachments to how I , other people, or situations in general should be that I made myself miserable when that wasn't the case. I now see how all of that was or is driven by ego, unrealistic expectations, & possibly a need for control. Its liberating to realize that & start to learn to let go.

How do you feel SE is affecting your interactions with other people?

Too soon to say for the most part. I haven't been out & about much but I have noticed I feel way more relaxed & less in a hurry. Yesterday morning I was waiting for the Costco pharmacy to open & a woman told the person working there that she was going to just go sit by me for a bit. Probably a coincidence but that doesn't happen often.
This week at work should be interesting though as I don't feel the the anxiety or hesitation about certain parts of my job.That was something I noticed Friday. I have always admired folks that have a quiet confidence. I may appear to be extroverted but a lot of times it's actually the exact opposite. Not out of shyness or anything but because I enjoy solitude & silence.