06-03-2018, 06:14 AM
Day 3 - Getting the instructed listening time in as I set a playlist with six SE tracks. Making sure I don't accidentally put it on loop so it stops when the sixth track is done. I feel really good this morning. I have been thinking about how I have always done things I didn't want to do out of fear or some guilt imposed sense of obligation. I now understand how unhealthy & toxic that is. I am having a difficult time putting into words how I feel. In some ways it feels like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders. Or is at least easing up. I feel it's because for so long I've had so many mental & emotional attachments to how I , other people, or situations in general should be that I made myself miserable when that wasn't the case. I now see how all of that was or is driven by ego, unrealistic expectations, & possibly a need for control. Its liberating to realize that & start to learn to let go.
