05-09-2018, 04:14 PM
Dealing with a metric f***ton of resistance tonight. My brain is fighting me. Telling me how I don't need this or that if other people aren't going to change why do I have to? It's so silly I know. Because of it I'm beyond frustrated tonight. I'm listening to E2 right now & will continue to do so. I had a cool conversation today with one of the higher ups at work who basically said I will improve but I need to be patient & build confidence. I understand what he's saying & I'm working my ass off to get better but I also realize my progress may take longer than I expected or had to hoped.
I'm seriously considering only listening to E2 for six months . Then again given all I've been through I know the longer I listen to E2 the better . I just feel like I'm doing everything I can to improve at work & at home & yet I'm literally being forced to wait & be patient.
I'm seriously considering only listening to E2 for six months . Then again given all I've been through I know the longer I listen to E2 the better . I just feel like I'm doing everything I can to improve at work & at home & yet I'm literally being forced to wait & be patient.
