Antaeus' AM6 Reboot Journal

[JCasterlin]

Nothing profound really happened today. But some thoughts crossed my mind that are worth noting.

At the store I work at there is this lady that has been a regular customer with her mother for years. Probably even before I started working there 11 years ago. She supposedly suffered brain damage or the like from a bad car wreck many years ago. She's a nice lady, but definitely not all there, I mean that in the most respectful way of course. But it got me to thinking when I was still a cashier, many years ago, the people who were working the customer service booth would, whenever this lady came in, toss any loose change they had on the floor to watch her basically flip out and collect the change off the floor rather eagerly. "Ooh mine! mine!" Or the like is what she would say when running to pick up the change. All the while the kids in the customer service booth are getting a kick out of it laughing their asses off. This was many years ago.

All of this got me thinking one thing: most people out in the world are out for their own amusement and their own benefit. And many times not even the most helpless among us are safe.

Sometimes I just think: I really hate people.

All of it takes me back to some people in my life who have either clowned on me or taken advantage of me for their own gain.

No reason to be bitter I suppose but definitely good reflection material for my growth.

This post reminds me of many times I reflected on negative aspects of human nature during the early stages of AM6. Be prepared to potentially experience more insights like this. Reminiscing on how others treated you negatively will now be a chance for you to look back and learn how to establish a stronger you for the future.

I'm having that with E2 . I have really started become aware of unhealthy or toxic behavior in others. I especially look back at my own reactions or responses & ask myself " was that beneficial , necessary , or the best response? "