My EPHRA 2.0 Journal

[JCasterlin]

Day 2 - I've been enjoying the last couple of days feeling really calm & quite a bit introspective. Yesterday I probably got somewhere between ten to twelve hours of exposure time in & today so far I've got at least six hours in. Its 4:10 PM here so I can probably get close to twelve again today. I really feel that doing a run of six months if not double or triple that , was or is the best choice at this time given where I am in my life at this moment, the changes happening in the next couple of months, & my goals for the not too distant future.
To be dragging around the same mental & emotional baggage could easily hinder if not possibly sabotage my progress. I grew up watching what not resolving your inner crap can do to someone. I see it now with how much mother at almost 75 years of age responds to any inconvenience as an apocalyptic event. I know this won't be easy but I will do the work & press play every day

Hi man! Will probably follow your journey a bit, best of luck!

I'm recognizing my "past self" in you so I just wanted to give you some pointers that I would have given to myself:

• Don't focus so much on how many hours that you listen, focus more on how you feel in general - when you listen, after, during the day. Better to start slow with around 1-3 loops per day, and when you FEEL that you want more, well listen more. It's the same phenomenon as when you start exercising and do it 5 times a week for 3 weeks (or 1 week) until you crash, or worst case get injured. So take it slow, no need to hurry. Better to get used to the subliminal slowly and know how it feels.
  
• Get into the "now". Just as I did, I thought much about how things would be in the future. But the future will always be the future (get what I am saying?) Things are happening now and you can only feel in the now and only heal in hte now. Get here, feel what you are feeling right now and let it come out. There is where the healing is done. That is the way you get most use of the subliminal. It's not magic, it's words spoken to you, but you need to open up yourself to it and to the experience of helaing.
  

And I know the situation with having a mother who overreact to everything, lol. It's a real pain in the ass, but I believe many of us have had that kind of situation. I have learned to stay calm and not react to her overreacting, as it only spurs that fire. Better to take a chillpill and let her be.

Best of luck! will be interesting to follow you

//Greenduck

And PS. This is my personal opinion and it may not be loved by people on this forum - but the sigma/alpha whatever stereotypes is just what they are - stereotypes that for some reason has been given WAY to much attention as a desirable goal here. Be yourself, you don't need a stereotype to strive to become. Sure it's good to have ideals and people to look up to, but to "become alpha" is in my eyes the same thing as someone trying to "be as" a famous rapper. It's copying behavior, rather than trusting your own instincts and usnig rolemodels as inspirations. You cannot be genuine if you are trying to copy other peoples behaviors. [/personal rant]

Thank you sir. I will do my best to follow your advice. Right now I feel more than anything I want to focus on being consistent , try my hardest to be patient, & not get attached to any outcome or results. Doing E2 in so many ways mirrors the process I have to take with my career. Like you said focusing on the now. Not always thinking about the future or comparing my progress to someone else's. It hurt like hell admitting that.