04-15-2018, 10:40 PM
Day 143
With my family away, I am still listening to the ultrasonic version at night. I shifted to earphones 2 times during the week to see any effect. I had heavy resistance. First time I could not sleep and kept waking up.
Second time I stopped the subliminal or maybe I turned in my sleep and it got turned off. I turned it back on and started again. I had a weird dream. I was standing in a toilet (near a urinal) with another guy and talking and I suddenly turned into a snake and I was down on the wet floor.
I have been quite peaceful inside. There was an incident when someone I do not like came to our house and I was just pissed off. I I was upset over their behavior and could not tolerate it. I became peaceful as soon as they left like nothing happened.
My road rage is gone completely. I do not get angry over people behaving badly on the road anymore. That's a major change.
Another thing I noticed is that in office when I am about to do something /point out some error / flaw (part of my job is inspection / audit related) which might get some people angry I used to get quite scared. Now I am quite relaxed and can relate to it as it is part of my job I need not be afraid if I am following the procedure.
Regarding the sub sometimes I feel I have listened enough and I have healed completely and I should move one. Partly because I think I have got all the effect and partly because I want to listen to something else. It gets boring and somewhat demotivating. Then I think I have come this far and I should complete 6 months.
With my family away, I am still listening to the ultrasonic version at night. I shifted to earphones 2 times during the week to see any effect. I had heavy resistance. First time I could not sleep and kept waking up.
Second time I stopped the subliminal or maybe I turned in my sleep and it got turned off. I turned it back on and started again. I had a weird dream. I was standing in a toilet (near a urinal) with another guy and talking and I suddenly turned into a snake and I was down on the wet floor.
I have been quite peaceful inside. There was an incident when someone I do not like came to our house and I was just pissed off. I I was upset over their behavior and could not tolerate it. I became peaceful as soon as they left like nothing happened.
My road rage is gone completely. I do not get angry over people behaving badly on the road anymore. That's a major change.
Another thing I noticed is that in office when I am about to do something /point out some error / flaw (part of my job is inspection / audit related) which might get some people angry I used to get quite scared. Now I am quite relaxed and can relate to it as it is part of my job I need not be afraid if I am following the procedure.
Regarding the sub sometimes I feel I have listened enough and I have healed completely and I should move one. Partly because I think I have got all the effect and partly because I want to listen to something else. It gets boring and somewhat demotivating. Then I think I have come this far and I should complete 6 months.
E1 182 days: E2 127 days: USLM3 317 days: UMS 210 days...
