04-05-2018, 04:26 AM
(This post was last modified: 04-05-2018, 04:26 AM by Have at ye.)
Heh, some part of me is trying to put up a fight regarding DMSI. Yesterday evening I experienced symptoms of overload (one hell of a headache which would not give up), but - there's no friggin' chance that I was overloaded. I'm using the program according to instructions, so one loop per day - there's no fathomable chance of overload.
I was trying to convince myself to take a break, I think. I did not, struggled through, listened to my loop of the day - experienced some serious nervousness while at it, too. But - the "faux overload" headache passed somewhere near the end of the loop. Had no trouble with sleeping afterwards, either.
I'm seeing this through to the end! I might be trying to postpone, avoid or otherwise escape something in the program (probably an aspect of the healing - it's touching upon something that scares me stiff), but I am not stopping until and as such. Gonna have to convince myself that whatever is getting healed/cleared out is going to be a *non-issue* once it is done with - so there's no need to try avoiding it, really.
I was trying to convince myself to take a break, I think. I did not, struggled through, listened to my loop of the day - experienced some serious nervousness while at it, too. But - the "faux overload" headache passed somewhere near the end of the loop. Had no trouble with sleeping afterwards, either.
I'm seeing this through to the end! I might be trying to postpone, avoid or otherwise escape something in the program (probably an aspect of the healing - it's touching upon something that scares me stiff), but I am not stopping until and as such. Gonna have to convince myself that whatever is getting healed/cleared out is going to be a *non-issue* once it is done with - so there's no need to try avoiding it, really.
"A man who is doing his True Will has the inertia of the Universe to assist him." - A. Crowley
